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Name: Megan
Birthday: 8/22/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: Books! Literature is very important in my life, espcecially books by C.S. Lewis and Madeline L'Engle! (And of course, the Bible.) But classics are amazing too... Music - I like everything from rock to classical, but recently I've really been getting into a little alternative-y stuff, like Death Cab for Cutie, Daphne Loves Derby, the Sounds, Fiona Apple, The Dandy Warhols, the Killers, etc. I still really hold tight to a few old favorites, though - like Ginny Owens, Petra, and Frank Sinatra... I also enjoy - eating Italian food, traveling, playing piano, watching movies, and generally doing anything to increase my knowledge of the world and its mysteries... I want to travel everywhere, learn everything I can, and die knowing I lived.
Expertise: definitely reading and writing. If you need something edited, I'm your girl! (you just can't be afraid to have your writing torn apart by "constructive criticism")
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  purplstarfish
Yahoo:  peachieohs
Member Since:
8/2/2004
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| I haven't blogged in a while. Good news is, holidays are over. More good news is that I'm really enjoying college right now. I feel like I have made some amazing friends and found a little bit of stride in my classes. Cafeteria food is getting a bit blah, but I love that I don't prepare or clean up after it! God is just blessing me so much right now, I really feel like I can feel him.
Bad news is, family life kind of sucks right now. I won't go into details (I'm pretty sure everyone reading this knows anyway) but good news about that is once again, God. He's just been the most incredible comforter. I still get really sad sometimes, and it's a really hard thing. But through it, he finds me and gives me joy through suffering, something I've never been able to grasp before.
Sum of life since last blog - Life sucked, and then suddenly God is like, WOAH. He's freaking cool. I'm changing so much, becoming so much more who I am. Life is so weird!
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| Haze of Winter?
I should really just hibernate through every winter. I might wake up much sleepier and happier in March and then I skip all the wintery holidays. They're the worst. I don't care what people say about Christmas, it is NOT all it's cracked up to be. I love Jesus... I really do. And I really love some of the Christmas songs, and I love thinking about the strangeness of the way Jesus arrived on the earth. But everything else could fade back into the commercials of smiling children and warm candlelight for all I care. And don't even get me started on Thanksgiving, New Year's, or... horrors... Valentine's Day. Around St. Patrick's day things start to look up, and by May Day (a very sexually explicit holiday, by the way) I am feeling very holidayish. It's very inconvenient being a sunny weather person, because by the time you hit winter all the good holidays start popping up. Or so they say.
What's the next holiday? Oh no... Valentine's Day. Wake me up when it's over, ok?
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| It seems like I've been reduced to posting song lyrics as blogs because I don't have anything else to say. This is sad. Must stop.
The only thing is... I don't know what else to write. These used to come so easily... I don't know what happened. I got boring?
I guess I could talk about school... Dead week started today and both my finals are next Monday. I'm kind of stressed, but I'm procrastinating. That's such a bad combination. As soon as I finish with this blog, I'm getting off this stupid computer. It sucks away my time like you wouldn't believe. It's just so easy to let myself get sucked into stalking people on myspace and facebook and filling out ridiculous surveys.
On a more positive note... I put Christmas lights up in our room and they look lovely. I'm never taking them down.
I think the reason I go online so much is because I have to be connected to people and I get so lonely here sometimes. It's almost like half of my life is classes and the other half is with my friends online. A lot of people say that in college you're with people too much, but I feel like here I'm alone too often. And feeling alone in a place full of people is one of the worst feelings in the world. Don't get me wrong, I'm not the type of person who makes a lot of friends online and never meets them... all my friends are people I know in person. But through myspace/facebook/xanga/whatever I can stay connected with the people I love and I know and people who are safe because they already know me. I hate that awkward semi-friend stage. I want real, sleepover, giggling, inside jokes, talking about boys and politics and boys again, teasing, comfortable friends! It feels like I'll never get that here.
Maybe that's the reason I've been obsessed with dating/romance/marriage lately... I don't necessarily want the romantic aspect (although I wouldn't mind...) I just want someone who's there, who I can always count on, who gets me, who I can be completely comfortable around.
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| Simply Love You Lyrics
Seems that life's become so complicated
I don't think it was meant to be this way
I find myself so distracted
Caught up in the chaos of each day
When did I stop asking for your wisdom?
As if your words were meant for someone else
Why do I choose to second-guess you?
Oh I only frustrate and confuse myself
Chorus:
I just wanna love you, Simply love you
The way it used to be
When your love was new to me
I just wanna love you, simply love you
To hear what you say and live every day
Like you asked me to
I just wanna simply love you
Many times you spoke of us as children
Childhood seems to me so long ago
You say i can trust you like I did then
If I give you my hand then you'll lead me home
(Chorus)
Oh...to fall on my knees
With the fresh disbelief
Stirred once again with the story
of how you loved me
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| it's been 839 days since I joined xanga.
that's about 120 weeks.
about 2.3 years.
holy wow!
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